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November 20, 2003
RIP Jonathan Brandis
Jonathan Brandis, suicide...who'd a thunk?
Man, it's sad. I used to know the dude's parakeet's name (and sadly, I knew his middle name and he was from Danbury still. . . and how to spell Wolenczek, which I thought was the coolest name ever. He was a computer genius with a 'tude and he could talk to dolphins! He rocked! There's one seaQuest, the first one, that has a scene where Bridger, the captain, is communicating with Darwin, the dolphin, using sign language because he wasn't too sure of Lucas's device he used to turn Darwin's clicks into speech. Lucas did this little sign language making fun of him...he was so cute, gah).
He used to be the shit! He was on every tiger beat (and I still have a lot of them {g}). I can't believe he killed himself. You had so much to live for. I was going to marry you someday dude!
May you rest in peace and I still watch seaQuest when I see it on. I'll always remember you like that. Cute, witty, dry, vulnerable and perfect. You'll always be my second love/obsession (Davy Jones was my first {g}). You'll always be my Jon boy.
Gah, I'm tearing up over a celebrity. I suck...it's the sugar pill.
Posted by vixen at November 20, 2003 07:15 PM
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Like many others on this site I felt a connection with you as a child. I only saw the Neverending Story 2 one time but that one time has stayed with me for some reason. There was just a magic there and a magic in you. Throughout the years, one scene in particular would come to mind: The scene is of Bastian diving off a cliff when he had always been terrified of diving from high-up before. That showed me what courage could be. A few years later, I needed to find the courage within myself to beat major depression. The thing is, I know what it's like to be at the edge and to feel completely hopeless and alone. That's why even more my heart goes out to you. You made a choice I'm glad not to have made and that I wish you hadn't. Although I understand why you did it, I wish you could have found the courage to keep on living rather than the courage to let go. I don't want to judge you. I didn't know you personally. But i have to tell you, a little piece of my heart died with you. You meant something special to me, and I just can't quite put my finger on what it was. I just feel like our souls know each other. I know you're at peace in God's heart now, and I hope to meet you there one day.
I was so sad when i heard about what happend to jonathan he was so dreamy in every way and a great actor REC.i will never forgive him because he was an inspiration to me.
Jonathan Brandis was my favorite actor ever!!!! He was the most gorgeous guy that i had ever laid eyes on. He is still the most beautiful guy that has ever lived. Even though I was too young to buy Bop magazines when he was extremly popular I always loved him. I watched "IT", "The Neverending Story" and "The LadyBugs" and instantly fell in love with him. I saw him and was like "who is this fine guy" I will miss seeing what he could have been. I know that he had his whole life ahead of him and could have found his happiness if he only could have held on longer. I will never forget when I heard the news about his suicide. I was talking to my friends about old actors that we loved and of course the first name that popped into my mind was Jonathan Brandis. My friend told me that he passed away last year. I was totally shocked, I didn't want to believe it. I went home and looked it up on the internet. The news was true. I immediatly began to cry. I felt as though part of my childhood had been taken away. He was the first guy I had a crush on. I always wanted to marry him and meet him and stuff. I always thought we had a connection because we shared the same birthday.
Jonathan I will always remember your angelic eyes and your beautiful smile that took my breath away. As sarah Mclachlan said it in her song "Angel"
"Spend all of your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it okay
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction or a beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
(chorus)
In the arms of the angels far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endless night that you feel
you are pulled from the wreckage of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angels may you find some comfort here
So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
the storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
that mack up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference escaping one last time
it's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glory of sadness
That brings me to my knees."
(chorus repeats)
I hope that you have found your solace Jonathan. You will be truly missed but never forgotten and never without love!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll see you in heaven.
I reallyuse to think that you were hot. I never could understand why anyone would want to kill themselves. But everyone has there own reasons. Im so sorry that you had to chose that way out of life and why you couldnt hold on anymore. But as long as you are in a better place then thats all that matters. God bless you.
Stephy
Well, Its true.I finally had to see for myself.You are gone.I heard rumours that you had passed, but I chose to ignore them.But today, I just had to know.And now I wish I didn't.Like the others said, a piece of my childhood has been ripped away, that little bit of innocence that I held onto, vanished.
K and I used to see who could collect the most posters of you, and we always watched one of your movies on the weekends as children.Remembering the good parts now, I smile.I remember , I was so young, but I listened to that Dream, Dream, Dream song from "Ladybugs" over and over and over, and imagined that it was me, and dreaming of that day when we would finally meet. Well, that day has come and gone, and we shall never meet.But I will always remember you, and that time in my life when you were on my bedroom walls, and in many of my dreams.Goodbye Jonathan, God Bless.
~J~
Today I was watching "Ladybugs", and decided that I wanted to see what Jonathan was up to lately. So I did, but I never expected to find the sites that I found. They all said, "Jonathan Brandis:Suicide". At first I thought that it was another person, but soon found out that it was true. We will never know what drove him to do what he did, but his childhood legacy will live on through the love of his fans.
Ashley: Arkansas
I was looking on this website and i saw a page that showed many pictures of famous people who have passed away. Beside the name Jonathan Brandis was the word NEW... so i clicked the name and noticed that the picture of the boy in the computer... was the boy who grew up with me IN MY DREAMS.. seriously, since i was younger this boy would be by my side.. but only in my dreams once in a while for many years. I then thought to myself that maybe he is just my angel watching over me. So i read the whole page and found out a lot of things about him. I clicked on the words PICTURES OF JONATHAN BRANDIS and one of the pictures showed him looking straight into the camera and even though he was in other pictures.. it seemed as if he was looking straight into my eyes and then i noticed that the backround was some what in my dreams. So i sat there looking stright into his eyes and thought.... "why do i feel like this? Like i know him so well? Like i have really seen him in life? What if it was in another life that i have had. Did i end up with him somehow.. or am i just thinking these thoughts. I wanted to cry everytime i read the sentences about his death but i didn't. Then i thought about my dreams again... had he seen me too? Was i in any of his dreams? I have been wanting to put a comment like this since i have found out about him and this page. I tried to find many things, pictures and all sorts of information. I'm not really sure if i am in love.... i'm not really sure of falling in love with some imaginary boy in my dreams. Maybe my whole life is still the dream. Of couse, like all dreams, when you dream of something that you really want, and it is in your hands, when you wake up, it's not going to be there... you have woken up FOREVER and will not always end up with the things that you want. Never. Like now i still do dream about him.... but not as continuously as i have in the past. All i can think of now is that if he was maybe my angel when he is alive then, how is it that he is maybe still my angel now?
To my angel always you will be there by my side, but only in my dreams! To my angels parents, Greg and Mary, always you will be thereby his side in his soul! Rest In Peace, Jonathan Brandis!!
i used to spend some of my time thinking of him coz im this madly inlove with him and i would say i am very fortunate to know him and to love him though others may say its crazy.i used to have my dreamt life with him and yet it will still be forever even if hes already gone coz in my heart he wont fade out.im missing him now so bad.i used to think im the only one admiring him this much...i miss miss miss him so much...its been such a long time of having this obsession of him and im glad anyway.i could prefer to hear him got married than to hear him leaving.(my hearts starts to heavy for pain everytime i think of his lost)he'll be in my heart forever...Anyway thanks for this great site!
I was watching the ladybug movie, he played in that movie, and i thought he was totally cute!!! I had no idea that he was dead. When i went to go find some pictures of him and i saw that he comitted suicide, I didnt think they were talking about the right one. Then I found his picture and I'm just so amazed that he would kill himself, and at his age.
rest in peace jon
I had no idea that he died.Today I was watching the ladybugs "he stared in it"I thought he was totally cute,so I went on the internet to find some pictures of him for my desktop,and I came accross this site and it totally shocked me.
God Bless you,
Jonathan
Sometimes I would wonder what happened to him, and I was watching the same show everyone else was...and I was like in disbelief...why Jonathon? Didnt you know how many people loved you? Whatever was making you unhappy couldnt of been bad enough to die for, but I guess thats just a grieving person speaking.
RIP My dear....I hope your happy up in heaven
I too, have many fond memories of Jonathan. It started in high school, probably around 1995 or so. I was in love w/this HOT guy! kinda silly, but my room was cluttered wall to wall w/Jonathan Brandis pictures, posters. I'd make it a point to go to the store EVERY weekend to see if new BOP magazines came out - just so I can add his pictures to my collection....I found some pictures recently of me in my room....and all you could see was Jonathans face and me pretending to kiss him, lol. AHHH I was a dork. I was very very sad, I used to dream about marrying Jonathan and having kids w/him, etc. The same as most of you. Didnt he have the most gorgeous eyes??? Jonathan, may you rest in peace - xoxoxoxo
I found out about Jonathon's death when I was watching a show on Vh1 about childhood stars. I didn't know him by name at the time I just thought it looked like the star from the movies "It" and "The Never Ending Story II." I looked on the internet to see if I could find out more about it, and I found out it was indeed the boy who played in those movies. I was shocked. I can't say that I was really a big fan of his because I never really saw much of him until now other than seeing him in a few films. It's really a shame what happened. I just can't stop wondering, why would he do it? And what if there was someone who could change his mind? Suicide is never the answer...ever. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. My prayers are with him and his family.
I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
When I first realized that guys were cute and not "eww" was when i had my adolecent crush on Jonathan. I used to watch that scene in Ladybugs and hate the actress for taking the spot i wanted. When I found out about his death last November I denied it. I just pretended like he was still alive. The other night I came home after my accounting final at my college and it was around 12am. I turned on the TV and there he was. I stayed up watching "Falling into Darkness" until the wee morning hours. I started to cry after it was over. I prayed for him and asked God to hold him tight and love him. I want Jonathan to know that even though he is lost he will never, never be forgotten. Even though I am 22 now I will always remember my first young girl crush on the most handsome boy/man to every walk the earth! Love you always.
Jantel
I remember the day I found out he had hung himself. I was in my room with my best friend Jessica Wright, and we was watching VH1 Childstar Babylon,and it said he did it in NOV.of 2003.I remember thinkin,"And y am i just now finding out about this almost a year later??". I was SOOOO freakin shocked! Me and jessica just looked @ eachother and stared @ the screen in awe. I can remember watchin "IT" when I was younger and thinkin he was the hottest one and was jealous of Beverley b/c he liked her.I also loved The Neverending Story II. I don't see why he did it, i mean he was a great actor, and he was sooo freakin fine, but thats just besides the point. I'm sure alot of good things were gonna come 2 him, but we don't know what was going threw his mind @ that time, we'll never know, so we'll never know exactly y he did it, but obviously it was a good reason 2 him. I miss u JGB!!! See ya in heaven!
~*~BrItTaNy PaRkS~*~
omg. i can remember the very first time i ever laid eyes on jonathan, my grandma says i was about 4 yrs old watching stephen kings:IT, he was my favorite character & the cutest one when i saw him i fell in love w/ the movie! I bet i was the the only 4 yr old in the world who loved a horror movie like that. The second movie i saw w/ him was sidekicks also seen through my grandma i thank her so much for introducing him to me & letting him be a part of my life, i can remember saying "berry's my boyfriend nana!" Then it was to the neverending story i was a little late on that one but still loved it ,& loved him every step of the way getting to know his characters in each of his movies.In ladybugs i was so jealous of that girl he liked. Eversince i found out he DIED :( i've been thinking boy i wish i could have just met him & had 5minutes with him, maybe i could have made him smile are laugh aww the thought of doing that makes me tingle inside but when i think of it i think maybe i will get that 5 minutes with him one day in heaven because im certain that hes there! Jonathan i just want u to know im youre biggest fan ever i love you good luck up there youre in my dreams*~*
`~*R.I.P*~
Jessica wright (14)
I was shocked as I watched Vh1's Childhood stars in Babylon show today and learned that Jonathan Brandis had killed himself! I had seen this same show before a while ago, but I must have missed the part about him. He was such a hottie. As I read a whole bunch of entries from many of his devoted fans, I remembered back to one of my friends who had committed suicide. It was very sad!
I know we all wish that Jonathon was still here with us. He did have a lot going for him. He was a great actor. None of us fans know exactly what was going on in his life to drive him to do this. Sometimes Depression can get so bad that it seems that the only way to be happy is to be gone. I know, because I've had those thoughts before. I'm sad that he didn't get the help he needed before...or maybe he did, but it just wasn't working.
I'm just happy to know that we'll see him again someday. Maybe then we can ask him why. I'm sure he's up there reading all these comments we made about him. I know he's happy now. :) God loves you Jonathon!! So do your fans...we miss you.
Shannon
I remember watching CNN and seeing the caption at the bottom saying "Jonathon Brandis-Dead at 27 ruled a suicide" and I thought WHOA wait a second. I hadn't even heard he was dead. When I heard the News it hit me hard. I was a fan of his when I was younger, but I wasnt one of the gagga girls...But nonetheless it was a pang I never expected. I just found out today that Shawn Phelan who played "Yogurt", in the 80's flick Toy Soldiers died in 1998 after being in a coma for 4 years as a result of a car crash. He was 23 when he died. Also Christopher Pettiet from "Dont tell mom the baby sitters dead" and "Young Guns, the series" died back in 2000 of an accidental drug overdose. He was 24. So sad all the young lives ending so tragically. Even more sad is that they are not given enough recogintion, even if only to inform the puplic of their deaths. Shawn Phelan had died before people even knew he had been in a crash, and coma for 4 years, fans cold have dontated blood, plasma..., and Chris had been dead 2 years before his news had come out as well.....SO SAD...
When I first saw him in Ladybugs i was like "who is that!"He was and still is a wonderful actor and person in my eyes. Everytime i went into the market i would beg my mom to buy me those teen magazines for his articles and pictures.i hoped when I was older that i could meeet him, that is why i am so sad because i know that will never happen. May he rest in peace.
Love,
Nat
I can't believe the guy I use to goo goo over in the movie (The Neverending Story Part II) killed himself. I was so sad when I heard he's story on the VH1 Child Star's of Babylon. He was to young to die. His life was barely getting started. I wish I could understand what could of drove him to do it. I will always love you Jon. May God have mercy on your soul.
I found out about Jonathan's death today. I was watching Child Star Babylon on VH1. They got to Jonathon Brandis and spoke of his awful tragedy... wait.. Jonathon Brandis?? This couldn't be. He just couldn't be dead. I immediately got up and typed in his name on my browser to find out what I had just heard on TV wasn't a mistake.
In 6th grade, we had a project to write our favorite entertainer a fan letter asking for a signed picture. He responded with a short letter, and his signed photograph. I was thrilled to take it to school, and kept it for several years. Only to lose it in the shuffle of moving. Oh how I wish I still had that photo.
Like most of you, he was my #1 hearthrob as a pre-teen. I would mention his name from time to time, and I actually ran across a few girls who didn't know who I was talking about until I said "Ladybugs".
RIP Jonathan!
I'm still grieving his death! It's sooo incredibly sad he took his own life. It must be so hard to be a former child star. It's just tragic! If only he had support like the support from this website! I JUST found out about his death in the beginning of May from some of my friends who just happened to mention it to me. And I almost cried! It's too sad...and I can't believe I'm STILL grieving...I didn't even know him! But I did adore him when I was younger-I watched all his movies and had his posters ALL over my wall! Wow! So sad...
I'm a big fan of Jonathan's but the thing that got me upset is the reason he killed himself which noone knows. I wish they could bring him back to life because he had did so much at a young age. And I hope his parents are alright. I wish I could have got to meet Jonathan before he ever done this because he was special!!!
No he still is special!!!
I'll never forget you!!!
Love Always,
Zemaya
I too learned about his death on the SAG awards. I was shocked and thought it was a mistake or something. Even after the award show was over, I was thinking about and wondering if it was true and how on earth it happened (I thought maybe a car accident or something). I don't know why it took me this long to go online and find out what happened - but I finally decided to tonight for some reason - April 13. I had NO idea this was to be his 28th Birthday.
As many have said, for any of us girls born in the late 70s/early 80s.. we all remember Jonathan Brandis somehow. I remember watching Ladybugs when I was 12 and thought "oh man, why can't he go to my school?" ;) I was never a die-hard wallpapering fan of his, but I always liked him whenever I saw him in anything. I even thought he was a hottie (and blonde hair and blue eyes is so not my type). He wasn't one of the teen idol types from our time that in later years I enjoyed poking some fun at (like the Coreys). There was something sincere about him that set him apart from that I guess.
Reading all these entries tonight makes it even more sad. I wonder if he knew his death would have affected so many - would it have mattered? Who knows. I've been in that head space - It is a very dark and lonely place to be. I just can't believe he ended up there. That is so tragic.
I hope his parents are doing as best as they can today, and that wherever he his - he's found peace.
xoox
Wow,
I just found out about this today, watching The Neverending Story II I googled the movie name and the news about Jonathan appeared.
I was not a fan but something like this really makes you care, doesn't it? It makes you realize how precious life is. And how precious HIS life was. Look at all the people affected by his death. It's very, very sad. Today is easter, the day Jesus arose from his death. Unfortunately Jonathan will not return to us, but I've said a prayer for him for God to take care of him. I urge everyone to take a moment and let a loved one know how much you care about them, and I'll close with a benediction in his memory:
May the road rise to meet you
May the wind be always at your back
May the sun shine warm upon your face
And the rains fall soft upon your fields
And until we meet again,
May God hold you ever in the hollow of his hand
I was not in love with him, sorry that honor went to Edward Furlong (T2) and a young Leonardo Dicaprio. However, I do remember this advice column he maintained in BOP magazine (I was anti-Tigerbeat) and he was wonderful with the advice he gave and the compassion he felt for the questions. He dealt with heavy questions about young girls being molested by male family members and other situations, in a very mature manor. God love you John.
Wow! Part of my youth has passed. I remember saying in 6th grade i have 154 pictures of jonathan brandis but its more than the fact that a actor i had a crush on died its the fact that someone so young with a very long future in front of him decided that this was the way to deal with his problems.i've had 6 close friends make suicide as a choice for there end also all under the age of 18. The warning signs are always there and there always denied hopefully jonathans passing was not in vain, maybe someone who adored him when they were little will think twice maybe someone close to him will remember something small but signifigant that was a warning sign and prevent a future death but any which way you look at it he made the wrong choice. Its so nice to think well if only someone had said something to him if a fan had remembered him and said something that day, but its to late there is no hope for him now because you can't come back from death. I still would have married you jonathan. I'm sorry for his friends and famlies loss.
When I read about Jonathons death in empire magazine I was shocked - as many of you have said he was my first ever crush and I even have a load of collectors cards from seaquest dsv - I made sure that at least 90% of them where of Jonathon.
Last night I was looking for an old poetry book and I stumbled across one I had at school when you open the front cover I have drawn lips and hearts all over and in the centre a huge heart and an arrow that reads Elizabeth Jane Brindley 4 Jonathon Gregory Brandis forever!
I mean this is the 4th death of a favourite star (for me) since I was at school - River, Kurt, Brandon but I never thought that Jonathon would kill himself - I really hope he has found the peace he sought and my heart goes out to his friends and family.
Wow. I only just found out about Jonathan's death a few weeks ago. I was shocked and saddened when I heard.
Like many of you on this site, he was my first crush. I can remember watching him on seaquest and buying teen beat magazines in order to get posters of him.
It had been a number of years since I had thought of him. He obviously wasn't getting a lot of work and it must have been rough on him. Like the press release says we can never know what caused him to commit suicide, but I know sometimes those who commit suicide feel like no one cares about them.
I wish Jonathan could see this site and see all the people that care about him and are very broken hearted over his death. I wish there was someone who could have reached him, who could have prevented him. But what really hurts is we'll never know why he did what he did. We are forever left with the mystery.
I sincerely Jonathan Brandis was able to find the solace in death that he was unable to find in life. He will be greatly missed by those who love and care for him. And as you can tell from this list, there are many of us.
He was the first famouse person who I ever remembered, the very first, not even sesame street beat him to me. And somehow that just stuck, no matter what I knew who he was and what he was doing at the time...but this came as a complete shock. I can still look at the old pictures of him and see such life in his eyes, and see that he had so much talent and there was so much to him I just can't believe thats gone.
same with you peeps, i just knew the tragedy on the SAG awards.. so sad.. *sighs!*
hope youre much happier where u are now jon..
Rest in peace my Bastian..
ull always be my childhood angel..
God bless your soul..
Condolence to family and friends.
It's sad, it's heartbreaking, and there isn't a soul on this planet who can fully express what a person feels like to make them think that taking their life is better than living it. He was such a beautiful person who is obviously greatly missed. Some angels are called home early.
It is so sad. I just found out about his passing by accident. Like so many other girls, I was in love with him. I loved SeaQuest for what it was, but he made it so much better. Jon, you will be missed by many- most of whom you never knew. I will always love you.
Kristin
Hey, i just saw it on the SAG awards as well! I saw him and i was like, "What! I never knew he died" the next night i came on to the internet to investigate...its so sad and was a huge shock!
I was shocked when i heard he had died on the SAG. He was like with many girls in the 90's my crush, i wanted a boyfriend who was just like him!!! I think it is so sad that suicide is viewed as a way out, one of my close friends hung himself 4 years ago, we had no idea he was depressed, which is the case with most suicides. We will never know why they choose to end their life which is the most fustrating part of all.
My love goes out to his family and friends at this sad time.
Beccy x
Oh my God!! I am just hearing this now. I am in shock and I can't even express an any emotion over this. Jonathan was my first love at the age of 12 and I always wanted to marry him and always had pics of him. It is so sad. I can't believe it. I thought it was a rumor or something but I realized it wasn't when I saw so many sites talking about it. I wish he was still here because he made plenty of young girls swoon over him (Ladybugs). I don't think I will ever get over this. I hope his family and friends will eventually be ok without him. I wish he wouldn't have done this and I guess we will never know why...Love you John.
First Dana Plato, now Jonathon. When will the cruelty end? Emmanuel Lewis?
Like others I got a terrible shock when I saw that Jon was dead in the SAG awards. I don't think it was even reported in Britain. Jon was, like River Phoenix, a great talent that shone out way above other actors in his peer group. We'll always wonder why, but I doubt we'll ever know. My own brother comitted suicide aged barely 19. I attempted it when I was 25. What do we have to do to stop young talented people from taking their own lives? There is something terribly wrong in our Western world where this continues to go on. I shed tears for Jon, as I do for others like him ... What a sad, sad waste. But we'll remember Jon for the bright shining star he was ... gone nova all too soon. May whatever God exists hold him safe until he comes back again. RIP Jon ... you will be missed.
Wow. Thats all I can say. I was watching the SAG awards tonight, and this is how I found out about his death. Why was it not covered more? Like myself, everyone I know who was in love with him as we were growing up didnt know of this at all. What a horrible thing to hear about. I had Jon's pinups all over my bedroom walls and watched all of his movies. I even watched SeaQuest as an elementary schooler. I had no idea what they were talking about, but I just loved Jon so much, I watched. Thats how much power Jon had... its a shame he just did not know that. I know his name was not everywhere recently, but he should of just held on for longer. Now we'll never know what might have been. Miss you Jon, my first crush
I was watching the Screen Actors Guild awards tonight, and they had a brief segment on actors who passed away this year. I didn't even know Jonathan's name, just his face from having watched Seaquest. My husband and I were in our thirties then, but we loved the show. Please, for anyone who reads this and is contemplating an irrevocable act like suicide, please stop. There is always something beautiful to live for.
M
Oh john!...i will always remember him!...I will always love you..
I will always remember him.It was such a terrible shock when I found out 3 MONTHS LATER!!
I hope he is now in a better place.
I will always remember him as the most good lookin guy and one of the bestest actors in the world.I will never exept his death and i will always wonder WHY???
Rest in peace, Jonathan.
When I came across the news, I was instantly thrust back into being a toe headed blond girl with all the naivity in the world. Jonathan Brandis, like I'm sure most of you- was my first "love". Sea Quest every week and his movies as often as possible. Some called it cute, others obsession badly in need to reparation. 75 posters and all the JB factoids I could fit into my dreaming mellon. I met him once. I was about ten years old and I was completely speechless. Who wouldn't be stunned in his presence? Somehow, I couldn't get that marriage proposal out and I just smiled blissfully as he put his arm around me for the photo op. After that, I was never bashful around another celeb. Time passed as it has, I'm taken aback by how affected I am by his death, and how that little girl in me died a little too.
It sad that he is gone. He is my first crush. If he was with me he still be alive right now. My sis
like him to. he will always be in my heart and soul.Jon is a cute guy.I wanted to be Mrs. Jonathan brandis.I wanted to meet him in person but that never going to happen.He is the first guy i fell in love with.Peace My Lover.
OMG
Melanie Moss stated it best. I too, was a huge fan of Jonathan Gregory Brandis and of course, he stayed in the back of my mind as the years went on since the end of Seaquest. When I heard about his death, I was like, no way, I have his autograph and he's so young. WHY? That is what I want to know. If only he had heard of Good Charlotte's "Hold On", maybe he's still be here. He'll always be number 1 to me, as he was my very first actor I began to like. He was hot and perfect in every way. Why? I will miss him. It's still a shock to me. No more Jon. Jonathan, I loved you so much, and I will continue to love you. When it's my time to go, I am going to look you up, and just ask, why?
Peace and to others: Hold On as Good Charlotte says.
Diane
Its so strange. I always liked jonathan, but I was never sure why. I'm not the type to usually be star struck, but there was always something about him. As I grew up I went through some rough times for years where I was very sad, like it seems that jonathan was. I always felt this connection with him even though I didn't know him or didn't know why I felt it. You make think me nuts to say this but more than once, over the years, I dreamt that he was sad too like me and I even dreamt a few times that he killed himself. Maybe I was just projecting my own feelings on him, or maybe even somehow I sensed that he was unhappy too. Now I have pulled out of my depression after many years. As you can imagine, considering the unexplained thoughts I have had about him, I was shocked to learn about his suicide. It makes me wonder what was happening to him all this time. Whatever happened, I don't think I will ever forget him. I send my best wishes to his family and friends in their time of grievance.
I was infatuated, obsessed, and utterly in love with Jonathan Brandis. For a young girl struggling to survive the life she was given, he was my light in so much darkness. Watching him on the screen, there was so much gentleness, something so intoxicating in his eyes. I really believed and still do that for what I knew of him, I loved. When I heard of his tragic death, a piece of my heart died along with him, as I'm sure so many others felt the same. The emptiness in my soul can be filled by no other. I love you Jon for everything you were, everything you might have been and everything you helped me become. May you rest in peace always.
Jonathan Brandis was my favorite star when I was a child. I hadn't thought about him in years and then I was reading about suicide in a magizine and they listed movie stars who committed suicide and his name was there. I was like, oh my god no way! I feel very sad, like a part of my childhood has been ripped out of my heart. I don't think any true fan will get over such a tradgedy as this.
-Melanie Moss
Age 22
I never met Jonathan and now I how no chanche to do it... When I read sad news about his suicide I was about to kill myself. I cried all night and tommorow at school I wasn't able to control myself...
I guess like everybody else, couldn't believe that Jonathan Brandis past away. He was the only teen star I fell over heels! I admired him with all my heart. That stage might ahve passed, but upon hearing this news, it all came back to me. I was in highschool that time, now Im 25 and working like there's no more tomorrow. But my memories as a die hard fan of Jon all came back to me and how he made me happy with his movies, his smile, his blue eyes. I don't want to question Jon's death.. But I wish whatever the real reason behind this, He is now at peace.
I just came across this website now, and I feel like I need to post. I never met Jonathan, but I could see that he was a kind soul. As most of the girls that posted, he was my first crush, and I will miss him greatly. I am still in shock about such a tragic death, and I keep thinking, if only someone had reached out to him. If only... Maybe he could have been saved. Jonathan, you are, and forever will be greatly missed.
miss oyu lots luvie duvie you were the first guy i falled for and if you were still here i just want you to no that people did no you existed and your not the only one whos depresed and hates there life...and ur surtenly not the only one who tried to kill themself....i no from experience
You are Greatly missed jonathan ILL LUV YOU FOREVER AND FOR ALWAYS!!!!
~BlEsseD bE~ luv Ren
I didn't know you in real life, but you were the ideal guy for me when I was a teenager and you still have effect on me now I'm 25. I still fall for guys with blond hair and blue eyes and I guess that's because you were my first crush and they remind me of you. I truly admired your acting skills, especially in IT, I remember that when I was twelve I just thought you were the best actor on earth and the most handsome guy I had ever seen. I couldn't believe a person could be so beautifull. I'm so sad I heard this about you just yesterday and I've cried for you. I've enjoyed your acting, I've laughed and cried and you will always be a part of my childhood that I will not forget..ever..Dear Jonathan, Rest in Peace.
Jennifer, Holland, Amsterdam
Wow...I have been so upset about this. I can remember being 10 and my best friend, Julie who was 11 at the time lived down the street from you. I looked forward to the weekends because that's when I stayed at Julie's house. We would take hours getting ready to come see you. Whenever you were home you would always come out and take the time to talk to us. We thought the world of you, and had every reason too. On the walk back to Julie's house we would fight over who you liked better. And come to think of it you probably didn't like either one of us more than just a friend. But we liked to think at least one of us would be your future wife. And your mom...Sweetest lady ever. Even if you weren't home she would spend time talking to us to let us know what film or project you were doing. And she always said hi when she was out walking the dog. And she always had a smile on her face. My heart breaks for your parents. They are in my thoughts and prayers. May God take them thru these painful times. I know He will. And as for you Jonathan...You will be extremely missed and remembered. In years to come I will see you in Heaven......
I am researching a book about Bobby Driscoll. Then I heard about Jonathan's death. From what I understand, Jon was a good guy and there aren't many of them left. Jon was so much more than an actor, and the one role for which he deserved recognition was as Jonathan Brandis as a friend. Everybody that knew Jon liked him. The people, who knew him best, loved him. When times were bad, Jon kept his problems and his pain to himself. That is what destroyed him. Somebody should have told Jon, friendship means that you share everything.
My reflections on losing Jonathan Brandis, Anissa Jones and Bobby Driscoll. A gentle soul is someone to treasure and hang onto. Even though I didn't know you, I'll miss you, pal.
Remember Me
Remember me with smiles and laughter,
Because that is the way I will remember you all.
If you can only remember me with tears,
Then don’t remember me at all.
An Irish Poem of Remembrance
No man is an island, entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main… any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind, and therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee. (John Donne)
I am a man; nothing human is alien to me…. (Publius Terentius Africanus 195-159 BC, a Roman Poet and Playwright more commonly know as Terence; the exact quote in Latin is: Homo sum; nihil humani a me alienum puto)
Candle On the Water/Al Kasha and Joel Hirschhorn
I'll be your candle on the water
My love for you will always burn
I know you're lost and drifting,
But the clouds are lifting,
Don't give up, you have somewhere to turn.
I'll be your candle on the water
Till every wave is warm and bright
My soul is there beside you,
Let this candle guide you
Soon you'll see a golden stream of light.
A cold and friendless tide has found you
Don't let the stormy darkness pull you down
I'll paint a ray of hope around you
Circling in the air, lighted by a prayer.
I'll be your candle on the water
This flame inside of me will grow
Keep holding on, you'll make it
Here's my hand, so take it
Look for me reaching out to show
As sure as rivers flow,
I'll never let you go
I'll never let you go
I'll never let you go
© 1976 Walt Disney Music Co. and Wonderland Music Co., Inc.
Death Be Not Proud/John Donne
Death be not proud, though some have called thee
Mighty and dreadfull, for, thou art not soe,
For, those, whom thou think'st, thou dost overthrow,
Die not, poore death, nor yet canst thou kill mee;
From rest and sleepe, which but thy pictures bee,
Much pleasure, then from thee, much more must flow,
And soonest our best men with thee doe goe,
Rest of their bones, and soules deliverie.
Thou'art slave to Fate, chance, kings, and desperate men,
And dost with poyson, warre, and sicknesse dwell,
And poppie,' or charmes can make us sleepe as well,
And better then they stroake; why swell'st thou then?
One short sleepe past, wee wake eternally,
And death shall be no more, Death thou shalt die.
Holy Sonnets/John Donne 1572-1631
Through a Glass and Darkly/General George Patton
So as through a glass and darkly
The age long strife I see
Where I fought in many guises,
Many names -- but always me.
So forever in the future
Shall I battle as of yore,
Dying to be born a fighter
But to die again once more.
Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night/Dylan Thomas
Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Though wise men at their end know dark is right,
Because their words had forked no lightning they
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Good men, the last wave by, crying how bright
Their frail deeds might have danced in a green bay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Wild men who caught and sang the sun in flight,
And learn, too late, they grieved it on its way,
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Grave men, near death, who see with blinding sight
Blind eyes could blaze like meteors and be gay,
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light.
Nothing is more powerful than listening to the great Welsh poet Dylan Thomas read his poem “Do Not Go Gently Into That Good Night." I have been fortunate enough to hear him, and no other experience comes even close. Poetry should inspire us, challenge us; Poems should take us from where we are comfortable, to where we belong. To hear this eloquent man rail against death, for stealing too soon, those whom we love; is to hear the truth spoken by an honest man.
There is a right to remember someone. I have never seen it more eloquently expressed than in John Gunther's Book about the Death of his son Johnny. Johnny had a brain tumor and died a few days after his 17th birthday. The last year of his life was an inspiration to everyone that knew him: he did the impossible, he graduated from high school and was admitted to Harvard, all the while racked with pain and agony of a brain tumor which was destroying him. His mother and father, after a painful acrimonious divorce, pulled together to comfort their son. It is a story that will leave you sad and exultant at the same time. There is true beauty in life, it is called love. That is the way you remember someone, that is the way you remember anyone. Remember Johnny, Bobby and Anissa with love; remember Jonathan with love.
This is just wrong. It's hard not to think this is a hoax, with the little about of publicity gievn to the subject. Either that, or everyone is too caught up with the deaths of "better actors" to care. I just don't understand to be honest. Jonathan Brandis was an awesome actor, and a "first crush" for a lot of girls. What the hell? I'm just in shock with this whole thing.
They should do a special issue of people magazine dedicated entirely to jonathan brandis,his life, and his movies to show respect to such a wonderful actor and not to mention a caring a generous person on and off screen. Cause he deserves a lot of recognition.
I just cannot believe it. A person so positive would do such a negative thing. All those advice colums telling people to hang in there. What would drive such a wonderful person to such personal destruction? I guess the world will never know. But he will always be in my heart forever.
I miss you, Jonathan. And I'm mad, too. River's death affected me quite a bit; the 10th-year anniversary of that Oct. 31 night had just passed--and now this. Did you think that "doing the deed" would get you the fame River managed to resurrect with his death? Well, it didn't. Just the running banner on Headline News for a day. That's it. But many of us on the web still remember and are sad--and mad. We'll watch our old SeaQuest tapes and remember what a wonderful talent you had. But you were a wonderful person too, without being a celeb. I wish you had believed that; then maybe this wouldn't have happened. Peace wherever you voyage.
What really sucks is that I heard about it on a blog and not on the news (but any other even halfway famous person that dies, I hear about it one the news). I know he wasn't A list but some of his movies are still shown with regularity (Ladybugs, The Neverending Story Part 2...even seaQuest is still shown). I think they should at least recognize him.
I was so inlove with Jonathan Bandis. I thought about him all the time,24/7. He was the ideal man it's so sad this had to happen. He wasn't married had no children, and all those things could've happened if he would've lived. I just feel horroble for his parents.Jon was the only child and now his parents have no other children and will never havev any grandchildren. It's horrible. All I care to know, and am desparate to know is why he did it?
Was there something really bad in his personal life that he needed help with? What was wrong? If anyone knows someone needs to speak up! I just wih that someone could've been there to stop him or kept a closer eye on him so it could've been prevented. If the cause of his death was by Accutane like I've been reading the government needs to make this medicine illegal,because this isn't the first time I heard of people or rumors of people being suicidal on this stuff.
I was so inlove with you, I swore that someday i would meet you. But now that will never happen.I just wonder what on earth was going through his head to make him do such a horrible thing to himself? He wasn't the most famous person in the world ,but he had so much still to live for,a huge future ahead of him,and was drop dead gorgeous.If he would of lived who knows what good things might of happened in his life or career. All I wanna know is why did he do it?
I was so saddened at jon choosing this. I knew him back a few years ago and it seemed that he was distant. I knew and felt lonliness in his heart. All I can say is that "Thank you Jon" for the hug when i was really down one night and all the times we kept each other company on the set.
You will always be in my heart buddy.
J-